The team is mostly settled, we have database programmer who pretty much handles everything, programmers who work directly under business analysts taking tasks from them. I find myself not adding any value to the team. In other words, apart from day to day admin tasks and some occasional instances I am hardly needed. So I'm thinking what next?
Not looking to be a full time developer,my health condition doesn't allow for it anymore.
I'm currently going through the transition. One I've learned one fact - People, People, People. It's all about people skills. People with emotions, people with attitude, people with ego and some great people as well. And you'd learn, you have to rely on things that aren't in your control. Age doesn't matter. What matters is how mature you are. Depends on whether you can smile and move ahead even when you know its not what you think is right.
SEEKING WORK -
I'm a melbourne based freelancer looking for work. Most of my experience is in .NET platform but can work on others as well.
Looking for either development or project management work.
.NET, MS SQL, mostly web development - backend, not getting much time from full time work to learn and update skills, so hoping freelancing will provide that opportunity
My Major Skills are .NET, MS SQL, mainly backend with APIs - comfortable with JSON and XML - I'll certainly shoot you an email once I'm ready. Thanks a lot for some hope.
Having changed 5 jobs in last 1.5 yrs, I am finally feeling a bit better ! How? I started seeing a Consultant !
One exercise he did just changed my way I saw the world. I may or may not help you but it helped me.
He listed all problems I have on the left hand side. Why I feel bad. Why I hate myself. Why I think I'm a failure etc etc. Then he wrote all good things I have. He forced me to think all good things around me. I said there is no good thing around me. He asked do you have a job. I said Yes. Well there it is. One good thing. Suddenly we came up with around 5 items.
Then he asked. Where do you think you rank among all the population of the world. I said may be 50%. But you know where we all are? May be top 5% of most privileged group. It just changed the way I saw where I was and what I did or what I had to do.
Find a good consultant. It does make difference. My previous consultant wasn't good and I really didn't believe in therapy until I met the recent Consultant.
Best of Luck Mate !
Another thing: Talk. Talking does a lot of good.
Once you change the way you think, everything else will make sense and get better.