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Am I still Hellbanned?

I'm pretty sure I'm hell banned, but forget about all the chemicals of the brain.

Read anything by Irving Kirsch.

He used The Freedom of Information Act to study All the antidepressants studies that were sent to the FDA by the pill pushers, Not just the cherry picked studies, but All.

He found they basically don't work better than Placebo.

Personally, I think the "Happy" drugs have been the biggest con job the American suffering have ever endured. At least we know opioids work--for awhile. Antidepesssnts just make Dr. Wealthy more wealthy.

My hope is most of these wonder drugs are sued into history, along with those mandatory doctor office visits.

Ask yourself this--why do Psychiatrists have the highest rate of suicide if these drugs work?

I'm glad we have residents whom picked an easy speciality upon graduation, but these drugs have such low efficy rates they should be illegal, or over the counter, with the exception of a few. Trazadone can be nasty. A bad reaction is cured by a needle to the middle part of the brain.

Most are easy on the body, but don't do anything besides make an Artist (Medicine is an art, and Psychiatrists are the milking to the bone.) wealthy.

God help our suffering Americans.

I get it.

I'm not into the "Throw it all away trend. That whole minimalism trend the wealthy can experiment with.", but when it comes to paying for a mini-storage (I'm just assuming); it's a win, win.

I worked at two mini-storages whilein college on the weekends.

I learned men and women valued different possessions.

In 99% of the cases, the rent/fees did not add up, but we like our stuff. I get it.

Once a month, an angry customer would empty their unit into a dumptster. The owner had signs up about dumping, but I wasen't paid enough to deal with the person who was at their last bit of hope, and decided Saturday was the day to finally dump it all. One out of 50 customers finally realized that junk they were hanging onto was not worth it.

I did talk one guy out of getting rid of his first edition books though. I was watching him throw away case after case of books into the dumptster. I was sweeping near the dumptster. The first book I picked out of the trash, was a signed book by Hemingway. I knew he wasen't crazy, but he was angry with life.

There was a part of me that just wanted him to leave, and my broke ass could make some good money selling the books.

I decided to tell him forcefully that he was being rash. He took his books out of the trash, and put them back in his unit.

I left the job a few weeks later. Always wondered how his life turned out.

(If you ever have to use a mini-storage: 1. Prorate the rent to the 1 day of the month. Mini-storage owners love late fees. Pick a mini-storage with cameras. People steal, even the mini-storage owners. If renting on the top floor, and the owner only used chicken wire to enclose the ceiling of the unit; you are taking a risk. It's easy to get into your unit. Realize the hardest part of storage is moving your crap in. Most people leave their belongings in way to long. The mini-storage owners know this, and that's why you see ploys like 1st month free bs. I've always felt the government should provide all homeless individuals with free lockers. I saw so many people trying to live out of their car whike renting a unit. I only was one guy who succeed year, after year. My Mini-storage rant is over.)

1. The cost from the factory in China couldn't be more than $5.00 on their priciest model.

2. They charge $9.00 return shipping, and I bet make a healthy profit?

3. They might break even, minus the goodwill, on Ibud replacements? (I don't know Apple products anymore. Excuse the nomenclature. Ibud sounds off.)

1. I belive I'm Shadow banned, but who cares, and here goes. (There's a positive side to being banned on HN, but that's another story.)

2. If anyone hears me, yes, it would be great if all homeless had access to good Psychiatric help. And what's help good these days?

3. The chronic homeless I know just want a legal place to poop, and pitch a tent.

4. Most aren't seriously mentally ill; just the end result of a careless, brutal economic system. A system that fails many of us, especially the ones without a stable support system. What's that support system? Usually a caring family member. That caring family member that is always left out of the "I'm a winner" speech.

5. Rich boys can find themselves in college, and the job market.

6. Poor boys have one, or two chances.

7. A mental/physical hiccup can bring a poor boy down quick.

8. I don't want to debate, but we need areas of land that people who don't fit in can camp. We need it immediately.

9. Counties are using that "break on the glass theory" to harass poor souls to suicide, and worse. Worse is deficating on your streets? You don't like it, nor do I, but where are they suspose to relieve themselfs?

10. We need free plots of land, and bathrooms for the homeless. I've never heard a homeless person ask for much. My buddies just want to legal place to sleep, and a legal place to relive themselfs.

11. We are currently living in a society where everything is basically illegial. 100 years ago most people were basically homeless, but they had hope, and weren't harassed, vilified for not fitting in. Those days are gone, and we wonder why they do drugs?

I had this one co-worker call me every day.

He would just yack, and yack. Some times I would put the phone down, and come back in 5 minutes, and he would still be talking. He was eccentric, had a horrid childhood, but genuinely nice.

I thought he was nuts, but nice.

We ended up becoming best friends. They used to call us the odd couple.

I ended up trusted him more than family. We just included each other in everthing without even thinking. My girlfriends were put off by him at first, but he would wear them down talking, and before I knew it, he was calling them daily. And when he missed a day, they would ask me if he is ok. He never crossed the line either.

He died a few years ago, but his friendship technique was something I thought was brilliant. Just wear the person down.

I can pass this along, I once heard a therapist say something like, make friends with people your own age, or younger. Her rationale was they will die before you.

When I was in my tewenties, I just didn't have much in common with my peers. I wasen't more mature, but didn't like my generation that much. My friends were just older. I really loved all of them.

If I had a do-over, I might have really tried to make friends with people my own age. I'm all alone now. It does suck.

Anyways, my eccentric friend knew how to make friends. I haven't tried his technique, but might?

And who's going to be "The Side Hustler" who goes out and buys a late model Van with a wheel chair lift? And, I imagine Uber would have an aesthetic model requirement too?

It all great, except for the Side Hustlers?

(I recently saw the shimmy man argue with a Uber driver over having to declare bankruptcy. Just wrong. Drivers, maybe it's time to slowly look into forming a union? Quietly. Will it ever happen? No--because too many people are desperate for any work.)

Some of the most interesting people, I recall, have been Futzers. So many of them really clever people. I don't even know if Futzers us a word, but I hope the world produces more Futzers.

When I was a kid--it was kinda frowned upon. "Don't waste your time fooling around?". I think times have changed though? I hope?

The other day I made a watch band using the leather from my old boots, and dental floss. I didn't tell anyone because I knew it would be considered excentric.

It looks good to me. That's all I wanted.

"The most resilient part of the industry is that you buy a Swiss watch because you want to say, 'I have a Swiss watch,'" said Paul Swinand"

I love mechanical watches. I repair watches. I love all things related to horology.

That said, if I bought a new Rolex, I really wouldn't own the watch the minute it went out of warranty.

What? Yea, Rolex, and 99% of the other Swiss Watch Companies will not sell parts to their customers. They want you to send it back to the factory, at factory prices, when it needs a service, or breaks down.

If anyone from The Swiss Watch Industry is listening, enough with the "quality assurance" bs. Your industry is in a very delicate point in history. If you don't clean up you act, the quartz crisis of the 70's will look like minor stumbling block.

I never though I would say this, but lately, that Apple Watch is looking better. I just don't want to carry around an IPhone.

So, stop abusing the anti-trust act, and be very friendly to anyone whom buys your overpriced hunks of metal. You're in no position to call any shots, or get cute. If I owned your stock; I would short it yesterday.

(Sorry if I sound bitter. In the last 7 years, the Swiss watch companies pissed off a lot of Independant Watch Repairers, by not selling parts. The average dude with the $25,000 watch has no clue that he/she really doesn't own that watch. They are essentially leasing it. Having the right to repair(let the customer decide whom is going to repair) is so essential to the future of mechanical watches.)

I overheard someone last night talking about their father.

At 18, he had to join the Army. He spent the next two years in Europe.

He came home, and went to school on the GI bill.

He then went from job to job--trying to find one that had purpose. He decided to live in a commune. He bought a Indian motorcycle, and took off across the United States. When he need money, he would take odd jobs.(almost impossible today, unless you want to end up like that guy in Alaska who died in a bus.) He liked to drink, and smoke. He got into bar fights.(see how that one lapse of judgement will ruin your life today.) He finally found a job he liked. It was journalism. Within months, he had Union benefits.(again--try to find that today). Within a year, he had a house.(again--blah, blah, blah.) Then a wife, and kids.

I took away two things from that speech.

I couldn't imagine having to go to war at 18.

The other was all the things he did when he got home, and how now---just one mistake could ruin the future of a young person.

I'm not a millennial.

That said, I don't like this economy. I don't like knowing if I make one mistake, I could seriously derail my life. I don't like the fact that we have made so many things, once legal, illegial. Hell, you can't even smoke a cigarette in a park. You can't bum around until you find youself. You're lucky if you have a parent that has a basement you can throw a mattress in.

I really just don't like this current American society.

Would I want to be thrown into a war at 18--no.

That's about all I don't like about the past though.

(I won't be back to debate all the clever counter points. All I know is it's not great today. America has lost a lot. This is not the best country anymore. We need change. I would like to start with rolling back laws. It seems like there's a law against everything? Again, I won't be back, but understand the frustration out there.)

I have that book.

It's good for other field too. I've know union Electricians who didn't know how a three way switch works. They could wire it, but couldn't conceptualize it. Same with relay, and transformers.

It wasen't there fault. They just weren't taught it in the right fashion.

I do feel the book is dry though. I don't feel you need to read it front to back. I personally got more out of the diagrams, than the writing.

(My pet peeve in most technical books is the apparent lack of editing. If anyone is on the road to writing a technical book; there is nothing wrong with short books. People will pay for short books. Less is more--much of the time.)

This is different.

Just say you were going to vote for Trump. Someone stops you on the street, or call you up; would you admit it?

I wouldn't.

The guy is an absolute joke of a person on so many levels. He's stupid. He's just aweful.

But there's a tiny bit of Trump in a lot of us buried deep in that ID.

Personally, I do think we need to get much more vigilant on immigration, even though Obama has sent more illegials home than any other president. Would I admit this in public--hell no.

And I have never believed in Globilization. Would I admit this at work--hell no.

I really think a lot of people will vote for Trump in the privacy of that booth.

I won't because I won't vote for a president this year, or will I?

"No one forces anyone to live anywhere."

The problem is a lot of people are tied to a certain goegraphical area.

The person might be old, and needs the assistance of Very hard to cultivate true friends, or family.

The person might not be the most economically viable specimen? The person might have a hard time doing manual labor? The person might be one of the millions that should qualify for dissabliity, but doesn't.

The person is so close to being homless, this magical move to mystical cheaper part of the country might be the last straw?

"I'll spend my last $1000 on moving my belongings across the country. Hopefully I'll find an apartment that doesn't require a security deposit, first and last, and perfect credit? I hope my heating bill won't be high? I hope that minimum wage job is waiting?" A lot of hope? No wonder we have such a problem with Homelessness? (My last move was 6 grand)

It's not so easy to up and move when you don't have a nest egg, or a job that doesn't moves well, or a retirement, or helpful friends/family.

I'm tired of debating housing.

I know a lot of you hate rent control--fine, I kinda get it in certain markets.

A lot of you blame prop 13 in California--I think that's just blame becuse you ran out of reasons.

Good luck building high density housing.

Good luck trying to ease restrictions on adding on to existing residential homes. I got a ticket because I parked on the street last night.

Good luck making it harder for foreigners to buy our land.(Right as we speak their are foreigners, for instance Chinese buying our land with a phone call.)

So back to, "No one forces anyone to live anywhere."

No they don't--Slick. What are these people suppose to do?

Forget about living off the lands, like our Frontieer forefathers did. Camping for free--where? Hunting, and fishing without a paying money? Those days are long gone. We are tied into living a certain modern way. A way where pretty much everything costs money. Any deviants will be fined, and punished.

What are poor people, people on fixed incomes, people who don't have marketable skills, people without fancy degrees, and oh, so helpful parents, at opportune times suppose to do?

That's right move to the Midwest, and hope Wallmart is hiring?

And why do you think people in these mystical low rent areas are moving to high rent areas? It's not the beautiful beaches/mountians. It's the hope of a job, and a better life. Not even a better job--a shit job that's becomming harder to get. "Hay--l'll join the sharing economy? "I'll spend my last wad on a 2008 four door vechicle, and live in it?"

Yea, I got mad. I know too many people whom are basically homeless. A large percentage of them are former Programmers.

I don't see a solution. I think we need to open up large sectors of land across the United States that a person, or family could camp for free. Kinda like Kibbutzes?

I met a guy who was looking into a bootcamp. He was over forty.

I immediately thought, I don't care if he's the best student in the class; he probally will have a horrid time getting a job.

I don't think I've ever seen an industry that's so guilty--actually I won't say the word, but if I was offering a bootcamp, I would just mention the game is geared for youth.

I'm not saying you can't take the courses.

Actually, does anyone know anyone who has taken one one of these bootcamps, who's over forty, who got, and kept a job in tech?

(The older guys I know, interested in programming/web developement all had to work for themselfs. I know one guy who made a killing. The rest are barely supporting themselfs. None went to a bootcamp. They couldn't justify the cost. I don't know if they did the right thing, by not going to a bootcamp.)

I work on mechanical watches. Rolex watches, along with most high end watch manufactures, is they were built to be worked on. They are designed to be taken apart, cleaned, and oiled. I love working on any Rolex. The parts just fall into place. Rolex made a great product. They really don't need "the next big thing". They made a good product, and didn't muck it up.

That said, since the average owner of a Rolex knows nothing about Watch Repair/Servicing; Rolex decided to make getting parts a pain. Essentially, Rolex wants you to send the watch to the factory for service, and repair. At factory prices.

They claim it's for quality assurance, but I feel it's just a money grab.

I wish these better watch companies didn't decide to do this. A lot of you will be buying your first nice watch. Remember, since you can't call the factory and even order a gasket; Do you really own the watch?

This will mean nothing to a lot of you. It's just a trend I don't like. I guess being American, I'm not comfortable being told what to do?

(Seiko sells parts to the public. And I'm not claiming a Rolex is not overpriced. I would never buy a new one. I'm just claiming they made a good product. A product that doesn't need an upgrade.)

I always felt a rigorous test could be administered, and tailored to specific job applicants.

And yes, if we had tough tests, make it illegial for an employer to even ask where you went to school.

For example, if a person can pass the CA bar, let him/her practice law?

I bring up the CA bar test because it's especially hard.

There are some professions that wouldn't lend themselfs to testing, but they would be the exception.

I have a question for any under 20 year olds. What are likes/dislikes in current tech? I know it's a general question, but I'm honestly interested.

For instance, is a physical keyboard even necessary? Do you use FB? Apple, or Android phone? Contracts, or prepaid? Do you buy stuff from small websites? Or, is it just not worth the security risk? Does it bother you if a website demands a profile picture? Does the repairability of a electronic device matter? I'd appreciate any feedback.

I'm just curious. I'm not one of these rich guys trying to corner the next big trend. I'm pretty poor, but interested in tech., and would like to get a gauge on where it might be heading.

Someone offered you a mint 1960 ford falcon, with 0 miles, and someone else offered you a new 2016 Ford Fiesta.

You would take the Fiesta?

A few reasonable metrics;

A better looking vechicle(Falcon), with a minimum of plastic. Subjective. Sorry.

Ease of repair. Objective. Win, by a long shot. Engine--easier to repair. Transmission--easier to rebuild. Electrical--bone dead simple. There's a reason you still see them on the road--50 plus years later.

There's objective reasons guys of differing demographics/tastes hunt for old Falcons. They are collector cars. They were simple. They were less complicated. In my eyes, they were miniminslistic cool.

I don't think in 56 years we will have Fiesta clubs, or guys scouring the Internet looking for restorable Fiesta's, or maybe they will? I don't know.

(In terms of emmissions you win hands down. Maybe I missing your point? If that's the case--sorry. If I had a huge garage, and some capital, I would be, right now, buying up collector cars, and keeping them for retirement. The only stumbling block I see is the federal government making older vechicles so hard to smog, they will become impractical to pass emmissions. Even, if that happens, I have a feeling guys will retrofit some of these older desirable classics with electric engines? )

I'm in a similar boat. I am one life crisis from being homeless. I've had that feeling of being off kilter since '89. I busted a gasket in that year. The experts said it was nothing besides anxiety, and dysthymia. I said busted a gasket, because in all those years that's the clinical definition that made most sense. I just couldn't blame it all on my chilhood.

My heart goes out to you. I know words are cheap, but I truly understand how you feel.

1. Don't want them sleeping in tents on sidewalks? Provide a place to pitch a tent that doesn't cost money--maybe rent a piece of land in another county, and use tax payer money for security, etc. Other counties don't want them. Problem.

2. Want to avoid stepping on feces/urine? Build some restrooms? Oh no? They will just have sex in them, or shoot up. Problem. (By the way, I can find a restroom in that lovely city.)

3. That study concluded most homeless are from San Francisco. "Oh, no they arn't! It's a bad study!" Problem.

4. "There here for the benefits?" What benefits? I only know of one benefit, and that benefit was for homeless animals. It was shut down years ago.

5. Every county in the Bay Area has been essentially harassing the Homeless. In Marin County, where your bosses live; there's not one square inch of land that's legal to pitch a tent, or sleep--that's free. If you have no money--you are breaking some municipal/county law by sleeping.

6. Our economy has desimated most jobs. The jobs left don't provide a livable wage. This has been going on for 25-30 years. Problem.

7. I haven't even got to drug use, or mental patients. Problem.

8. Oh yea, why is the Bay Area going to do this day of homeless awareness now? I think the writing us on the walls. I know Willie Brown is publically wondering what SF is going to do with thousands of newly unemployed tech. workers.

I'll get hammered for this, and I don't like FBI secretly recording anyone, but in this particuliar case; I'm kinda glad they were at least interested in stopping this alleged crime.

The crime? Supposedly, guys were buying up foreclosed properties. Yea, they were just doing what every get rich in realeste book/seminar suggests. They were buying up forclosed houses/apartments by the thousands. They were paying off competitors to Not bid on certain properties. They were rigging the system. They were in violation of The Sherman Anti-trust Act. Again, I think it's wrong, but have no sympathy for shinagigans concerning public auctions, and rich guys breaking laws.

(These forclosed properties usually only get a blurb in back of some newspaper. If I had money, I would be bidding on them. I went to one years ago in my county, and I was suprised how few people were there.)

Lithium ion batteries have the lowest rates of self-discharge.

There are multiple, large studies of rest home patients on opoids.

The conclusion, patients did not build up a tolerance.

(I know Dr. Dean Edell cited these studies many times, when he was on the air. He wasen't the typical media Doctor.)

We need to offer free camping in federal, state, and county parks to citizens? We have a catastrophe that's just going to get worse. It is homelessness.

We need to allow homeless to sleep in their vechicles, if said parking allows overnight parking.

We need to build Kibbutz's. (Or just give them a field to pitch a tent? A outhouse? Anything?

We need to stop making homelessness a crime. Every homeless person I know is camping illegially. They get tickets. They can't pay tickets. Tickets turn into felonies. It's just wrong.

If Jesus appeared, he would be ticketed for a multitude of municipal/criminal violations in a matter of days?

I'd say neither. I don't understand these generation labels?

I guess I'm a baby boomer. I was born in the 70's. I was a kid during Vietnam war, and Korean War. Growing up, I was scared of Russia, and the bomb. As a college student, I was glad I didn't have to deal with a draft, only signing up for selective service.

The thought of owning a home always seemed like a pipe dream. I thought the only way I could own a home is maybe in Lake County. In other words, a vacation home in the middle of nowhere. I could no way afford my dad's home. I can still buy a hot box in Lake county for what it cost 20 years ago.

Unless you were a networking, butt sniffer you didn't just automatically land that great job out of college. Oh yea, guys like me thought little of networking. "Why would I like a person, just because they could do something for me?" On the other hand, my wealthy sister went after those who could further her career like Sheen to drugs. She is a bit of an odd ball though. She was so greedy, she took all my mother's money. I'm so tempted to out her, but can't.

Growing up, we did have access to more jobs--mainly lousy jobs. Even the college corporate jobs were not great. I had two, and traveled a lot. It was not fun. I hate hotel rooms, and airlines. The real stepping stone in life was a wealthy father. I don't think that's changed much. Those kids got the right advice. Those kids got the right loans. They got to take on risk? They are in houses, and have stock portfolios now.

The way I see it, the labels are not productive. At least don't include my generation with my father's. My father was a real baby boomer, but he was born in 1938. If you didn't want to go to college, you just went into a union trade. You bought a house, and had kids. You drank, and smoked a lot--and didn't have to worry about dying from sex. Life wasen't bad.

My generation and my father's were completely different. I looked at my father as a spoiled kid. I thought he had all the opportunities, and he didn't explore them.

Again, as to generation labels, I wish we would stop using them, or at least get the dates in order. My best friend is a gen X'er--I guess. I recall the first time we even talked about our "different" generations. There were no differences. I will admit there's a difference between my generation and Millenials. Millenials know much more than I did growing up. We were Naive. Housing was always terrible for all of us. Wasen't it my generation that coined "living in the parent's basement?". Believe me--housing has always been bad. Now--in the Bay Area it is beyond bad. I will give Millenials that, I have never seen housing prices like this, but as Stanley Druckenmiller pointed out today, he sees a big kaboom comming up. You rich kids will get your house.

(I won't be back to argue. I don't think I said anything worth arguing over. I'm getting over Shingles. I can pass this along. If you ever get a weird pain in your back, and notice a weird rash; go right to a doctor--if you have one. Mine is 20 miles away. I'd even go to the emergency room, and ask for the antiviral. It cuts the infection down to 50 percent, and side effects, like neuropathy. You have around three days. I've been down for 3.5 weeks now. In a lot of pain. I used to think I could handle physical pain, but this malady is really irritating.)

My father died of liver cancer. He was under the care of Hospice. They gave my father enough drugs (Morphine, benzodiazepines, ect.) in the beginning.

He lived two months pretty happy. He liked the effects of the drugs.

My father was a pretty hardcore drinker, but very functional throughout his life. He was also very conservative, and would never take an drug that wasen't legal. Growing up, every once in awhile, he would tell me, "I think I would like the effect of heroin, but I would never take it." My father could never seem to relax, kinda like myself, and my brother.

Even as a kid, I knew my father needed to switch up his drugs, but I knew there wasen't much of a choice. As the years went by, I asked him to see a psychiatrist. Of course he said no. "But dad, you have this great union insurance--just see if the Dr. has anything for you." He never went, and I don't know if any doctor would give him anything--other than a detox program. What the doctor didn't know is my father stopped drinking for two months in his thirties. He felt better, but it was obvious he was nervous. He went right back to drinking.

The problem is, I really think, my father needed a drug like clonezepam before he went into detox. Anyway, he never went. My experience with Psychiatry is they gave me anti-anxiety medication, but it just was never enough. Years later, my doctor gave me a off-label drug that did the trick. I just wish the Dr. would have tried the harder drug years earlier.

Back to my father last two months. He was pretty functional, and liked the effects of the medication. In those two months, I thought my father would turn into a more compassionate person. He didn't. He spent his free time deciding who was going to get his money. My sister, and brother both tried to manipulate him, but my father seemed to like the attention? I stayed out of the drama--just because.

Well after two months, the drugs weren't enough. He needed more, but the hospice Dr. was way to prudent on the amounts. My father only saw the Dr. once, and every other communication was by phone. The hospice nurse arrived, I believe, a week before he died. We asked her for more drugs. She said, he just needs us around him. He was misserable that week. My greedy sister kept lessening his medication so he would wake up. He would wake up misserable. The nurse thought it was o.k.--like it was an act of love. I never told the nurse, but my sister wants him up to sign a trust. I got the feeling even if I told the nurse how manipulative my sister is, I don't think the nurse would have done anything. My sister has a way of gaining people's confidence quick. Never understood how people couldn't see through her?

My father was under medicated that final week. There was not enough meds on hand. My sister had the nurse under her spell. Plus, the nurse was projecting her own father's death over my father's. The nurse was always crying, and talking how difficult it was when her father died. I'm not questioning the nurse's emotions, and at first found them--honestly--I'm glad she cared enough to show emotion, but her crying made verything more stressful. My father didn't even know who this crying nurse was in the end. My biggest gripe is she let my sister cut back on his pain/anxiety medications.

The last three days of my father's life were hell. He would wake up frightened. He was always in intence pain. He was skin and bones. My sister once lifted the sheets and said, "In a way it's interesting? I said, "What?" She said, "Oh, the way the body breaks down." Yea--I was floored. While I knew she loved her father, I didn't say anything. Plus, I knew a death like my father's would be terrible.

My father's last words to me were, "Son--when will this end?". I didn't know what to say. I wanted to say, you need more medication, but didn't. He wasen't conscious enough for me to answer his last question.

He died two days later. All the family, and nurse were there. The nurse was saying all these new age beliefs, like he knows his loved ones are here. He wants you to talk to him. My sister had her indifferent kids saying kids things into his ears. He was never fond of kids--even his grandkids, so their voices didn't sooth him. I don't even know if he knew who was trying to talk to him? He kinda rswatted them away from the bed.

The last two days where horrid. He wasen't conscious, but he felt pain. So much pain. Pain! He was back to full doses of medication, but it wasn't enough. I called the doctor, and said he needs more. The Doctor said any more, and he might die. I didn't argue. I was an emotional mess. I was just thinking what's wrong with dying at this point?

I left an hour before my father passed. The rest of the family was there. I just didn't want to see him die like this. I knew he wasen't responding to us, but still had that horrid pain. There's a part of me that feels guilty for not being there. I figured what's the point of watching my father in so much pain. I found the professionals really had no answers in my father's death.

I got home and had a few glasses of wine, and got a call an hour later. "He died." I told my sister I'm sorry. She called back a month later, and wondered why her mother, nor myself weren't calling her. I made up some excuse.

When my father died, It was so painful--I'm still not quite over it. It has been 11 years and 5 months. Even though we didn't get along; the way he died greatly affected my life. In a weird way, part of me died that day.

(I hate to say this, but when my time comes, I don't want to go the way my father did. If I'm well enough, and have the money I will go and buy drugs off the streets. I've never even bought drugs before, but I think if I have the energy I will try it? Maybe? If I'm still in CA, and we have a Right to Die bill that just passed. Sorry, I went on. The man who's writing these brave posts is hitting me hard. I'm glad he's bringing death out in the open though.)

As to the spread of the disease, in my country they are recommending bikers/hikers to disenfect their shoes if they have been in the woods.

PG@E hires tree companies to trim all branches around their power lines. When the tree company was trimming around my residential trees, I noticed a complete lack of any disinfection protocol.Didn't disenfect tools, boots, gloves, etc. These trucks, and employees looked like they were actively spreading disease. Think about those tree shredders. It seems like if a diseased black oak goes in, it might blow the pathogen everywhere? (I did ask an employee if he knew the difference between White, and Black Oak. Just looked at me puzzled. Went to another employee, and asked the same question--he spoke a little bit of English, and said no. It wasen't their fault. They just weren't trained.)

I complained. When they came back to my street, they acted like they were going into surgery. Spray for tools. Spray for boots. Spray everywhere. It was quite a show.

I belive it was just a show for my behalf? When they arrived a few months later--no disinfects. I know don't notice any safety precautions on their part. This was a few years ago. They came back this year to trim trees, and no disenfectant.

I fiqure we pay a lot for out electricity. PG&E should make sure they hire tree companies that are not spreading Suddden Oak Disease. Plus, it's costly to remove a diseased tree for property owners.

Lyft seems to have the right attitude. I hope they gain market share, and overtake Uber.

Yea--Uber has always rubbed me the wrong way, on so many levels.

When I was in college, I had a security job. I literally watched a huge building on the weekends. It was in a bad part of town, so walking around that big, dark building was nerve wracking. I had a time clock, and had to punch 15 keys per hour. For two years, I made my rounds on the hour. Ten minutes of running around that place. Then back to the janitorial closet, and my homework.

After two years, my boss asked me to mix up my rounds. When I mixed up my rounds, I saw a lot of people doing things in that building they shouldn't have. Did I care? No! It was nothing life, or death, and I wasen't going to die over $7.49/hr. Nor, would I ruin some guys life. No--I wasen't a good security guard, but the patrons always got their lost purse/wallet back, if I found their items.

People don't like to hear this, but so much theft is internal. Entities like to blame professional criminals, drug addicts, etc., but so much theft is internal.

The people higher up in the organization stole the most. It was then middle management. And then Cops stole--wow, it was staggering, but they were pretty slick. And the thefts were always blamed on gangs, the homeless, or that new janitor.

I stayed quiet, and watched their behavior. I can usually walk through any store, and spot which employee is stealing. I have found they are usually overly enthusiastic, care too much about following exact procedure, and they are usually the last person in the organization you would expect would have a dark side, and never complain. In other words, the person who gets the managent promotion.

(I don't want to argue. I won't be back. If you do have a problem with stealing, really try to stop. If you can't stop, be smart. Don't steal enough to rack up a felony. I believe it's over $500? Don't ever walk into a establishment with no money. I forget what it's called, but it racks up big charges. If you are stealing because of the thrill it brings, take up intence exercise, or see a therapist. And try to take on Robin Hood morality; Never take from the poor. Don't let the innocent guy take the fall. Be a stand up guy?)

Off subject, but I'm surprised better rear view cameras/sensors are not being manufactured right now. I'm not talking about just a camera though.

Could anyone imagine a a smart camera, with a display. The camera/computer would assist the driver in seeing better at night. Would calculate the odds of a police cruiser behind you. Would warn of potential danger, like an animal on the side of the road. Would warn you if you are being followed. Would be so well designed, you still used your rear view, but kicked in at the needed times? Would map out likely spots police hide? Could even be tied into physiological body sensors? "Today is not a good day to drive? Watch out for ice. Watch you temper?"

The camera/sensors would have to be easily installed, like a stereo?

I would buy one if programmed right, and the cost was justifiable.

Then again there's someting beautiful about a simple chrome rear view mirror. A driver knowing they need to drive with all senses fully engaged, with no assistance other than experience, and good coordination.