joemunculus

This spring I defended my PhD. The very next day I had to fly home to see my cousin, who I grew up with, one last time. She had cancer and died about 5 days later. I am very sad that she is gone, but extremely happy that the timing of events in my life happened such that I was able to get home one last time to see and talk with her before she passed. So, hopefully you will get an explanation for cause of death, but either way maybe you can try and remember a pleasant event with your roommate and use that as a source of comfort. We can't always explain events in life, but we definitely have the power to remember and enjoy what has happened.

Start out in an MS program that lets you develop a research based thesis. After your first year you will have much more knowledge on whether the PhD track is right for you. Get to know your classmates that are PhD students and their experiences. Get to know the projects in your department that have provided PhDs to others. If you find something interesting then the PhD might be worth the effort. No matter how much advice from others, only you will know when the time comes.