HN user

folivore

169 karma
Posts3
Comments24
View on HN

Yeah, I had been wanting a good paid search engine for ages since I didn’t like being google’s product or watching as their search got worse for my use cases over time. I pay for Kagi now and it’s really worth it for me, specially considering customizations you can add to improve the experience.

I did use GSuite for my own email/cloud storage setup though have since moved to other providers to try to mitigate risk, eg if Google doesn’t like me for literally any reason, they could disable my account and I’d lose access to mail, files, etc.

I’ll often pay for products I use a lot even though I don’t get that much value out, eg Discord/Reddit, though those two companies seem to recently have changed course somewhat so I’ve stopped paying for them. It was mostly to support a product I cared about.

A lot of people aren’t fortunate enough to be able to pay for stuff, which I was once not, and realize that it’s not always so simple of a problem.

In this case, though, if you have access to the Internet and a semi-okay device, you can achieve a lot

I get that losing access to things you got used to sucks. At the same time, IMO, this post comes across quite entitled and whiny. Nobody owes you anything, specially not free hosting and/or server time forever. That stuff isn’t cheap and isn’t easy to manage, and they’re paying people and infra on what I imagine isn’t a great return.

So, free users are sad because it’s not the free they want it to be, except the free they want is essentially free everything forever. That doesn’t really work.

Registering a whole unique domain and taking the time to make this really rubs me the wrong way. If you dislike it, move on, maybe tell your friends.

I’ll also say that if something means so much to you that you paid for a domain but didn’t pay for the thing you paid for the domain to complain about, why didn’t you pay for the thing you complain about?

If something means something to you, adds value to your life, or saves you time, maybe it’s worth considering paying for it if the value provided is worth the cost. Demanding free stuff is entitled and silly and needs to stop.

I’d be interested in proof of me fishing for sympathy here. Does stating a situation count as fishing? I’ve made no requests for help beyond info around the situation. Sometimes people are human and need to ask more experienced people how they handled things

Instead, I get spam from a throwaway with an equally abusive comment history.

People here earn enough for the food to not be on their radar. I guess the office/food is symbolic, though I do understand real estate is hard to get rid of. They could rather have taken on the debt and kept good people (pure speculation, I have no idea).

It's hard to Guage overall morale since we're split into segregated teams per project so there isn't much intersection outside of the dead Slack server.

This is the case. There is a safety net with refusing to sign so it's a choice between betting on the company or winging it and hope they keep to their end of the law. If they fire me for not agreeing there is a body that handles such cases, since that's effectively unfair dismissal and you get paid out N months too.

Thank you. I'm not bothered about the company, though I do like the employees and the work. I'm trying to find the best way forward mid-long term for me. The company won't think twice about letting me go. I have options for jobs that I am reasonably confident about. They're becoming more attractive over time.

Thanks. That's a new way of looking at it for me. No form of compensation was offered other than "wait and see." So I don't feel confident that they will make up for it if things do get better. I don't want to suffer through a pay cut and then be laid off if they do worse either.

I have some options in terms of contacts. Perhaps it's a good idea to reach out.

I would love to know how people at the company feel about this in terms of morale. It's hard to bring this stuff up. I would rather be laid off than have this because there's at least a runway with known pay to find a new job.

I’m mostly okay, probably. I think my main problem is procrastination; can get stuck for days in some kind of suspended mental state until I force it.

I have been fired once for it though. Not proud of that. Don’t be like me and do nothing then get fired. I’ve had a successful 7 years of employment after that though.

I can relate to the things you mention. My approach has been to go with the flow and embrace the weirdness, though sometimes have to pull it back a bit. Not many people in the world get to see the world in a different light, like we do through the lens and experience of ADHD. I’m not saying it’s all fluffy rainbows but we’re kinda privileged to have a unique perspective. It makes me enjoy life more.

I do have bipolar and autism too though. Some stuff overlaps but I can identify where ADHD starts and ends mostly.

You mention mood problems. I have those too sometimes, most often intense irritation and frustration for no real reason, which is tough to control and not let it affect others around me.

I have come to learn that I am a very mood-dependent person, so I usually factor my current and future mood into decisions. Do I only want this ice cream now, but in reality I will eat it later, when I probably won’t want it because I don’t like ice cream when I’m in that mood I predict? But then, I can freeze the ice cream and wait for a 10pm ice cream craving. Anyway, you get the point. Sub ice cream for almost anything. Does future me or present me want that, and if it’s only present me, will I enjoy it now or is it a waste?

That being said, waking up the next day and remembering impulsive decisions from yesterday (maybe talked too much, ordered spontaneous takeout, bought a new guitar, whatever) makes me feel some regret and I need to work through it.

Mostly I realise I am gonna die (relatively, geologically) soon so me ordering takeout is probably okay. When I’m dead I can’t order takeout so I should probably try to make the most of my freedoms while I have them, within limits.

If I can’t focus on an episode of series (I frequently watch 10/15 minutes then start feeling physically compelled to do something else), I will either make myself watch it because I know I actually like it (usually enjoy watching it in the end), or I will leave and do something else, which usually ends up being a video game. Books used to hold my attention and still can but reading them now kinda feels like I’m wrestling a swarm of bees in my brain for a sliver of focus. I find games to hold my attention longer, perhaps because you control your game’s input and it changes frequently so getting bored is harder. That being said, I swap and alternate games very frequently, but that is also fun because I can (as above) pick a game for my mood.

I quite enjoy being so excited by new things and also being very good at learning new things because it happens naturally so often. Going to a market you’ve always been but discovering cracks on the wall up high you never saw previously then spending 5 minutes staring and 30 minutes thinking about it is fun for me. Same happens with textures of things, or sounds and smells. Sometimes super small things are so amazingly fascinating. My wife thinks I’m weird but do you know how many man hours of work went into the table mat at a restaurant, just to be a little sliver of plastic we don’t even think about? It’s cool. Stare at it a bit and you might notice little details we never thought of that make a big difference. Btw table mat crafting/factory processes are super cool.

I wrote a lot but yeah. Verbosity helps me when I am looking for information like this.

Anyway, it’s part of you and you can find a way to embrace it, merely live with it, or squash it. I don’t think squashing it works out long term though, but YMMV.

Meds do help but I don’t take them unless I know I will need them, since I get really tired after they wear off, plus feeling like that isn’t nice for me. I take methylphenidate, kinda playing with the dose (cleared with my psychiatrist first) depending on what I need/how much of a bump I want. It hasn’t been this magical portal into productivity for me, but it quiets my mind and sharpens my thoughts/responses, which enables me to perform much better in situations that need quick thinking and response, or intense short-term focus. Usually joke that I’m taking my “meth*” when I do.

If I have any advice it’s this: - Get a good psychiatrist and trust their work - Think of the bigger picture when you get stuck into stressful details