WheelsAndBlade

I applied as a SBE and it seems to not be a remote position.

Easy! To have invested too much time in Computer Science.

A bit of context: I'm born physically disabled, my parents fight to make me follow a 'normal' education. When I was 9 I realized that if one day I wanted to have a normal life I should be good at something. Since I was already spending 12 hours a day on my computer (to take my school lessons and to play with my friends) I decided to become a developper. 15 years later I'm triply graduated in computer science, I know a lot of things in nearly all major fields of CS and I have a good position in an important digital security company. I'm recognized by my peers and valuated by my hierarchy. I intensively tried to date for two years. First regular women, but I was massively rejected for obvious reasons. Then, disabled women, but I just can't because there's a too big educational/societal gap. I don't regret all the feelings I had doing CS stuff, even if it was just the illusion of pleasure to learn and master stuff. I only regret to, at one point, have confused my goal and how to reach it. Everything has a price, I was sure I was able to pay it, but now, I know I wasn't able to.

If I had to do a thing differently, I would leave 'normal' school when I was 9, my life would have been a lot easier.

I'm far happier now, I only do things that give me an immediate rewards and I'm here for my friends who have been patient enough to wait for me all these years.