Ask HN: Beating depression with or without anti-depressants? 4 years ago
step 1 - See a professional. It works for lots of people. It can work for you.
for me - I went the medication route and it didn't work for me. It may seem cringe but watching these videos changed my life.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xt-cnPHBcBM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qv0oTrpFOPM
So for me the solution was
* exercise
* motorcycles
And after hanging out with other bikers I've learned a lot of people are dealing with issues.
Good luck on your journey!