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Alcoholism is an option, but harder drugs generally are more expensive.

Are you sure? In my experience, a tab of acid costs $5-10, and the effects last about 5 hours. That's way cheaper than alcohol. [1] shows a breakdown of cost per hour for a bunch of drugs I've never touched, and most of them look to be pretty cheap under this metric. Compared to movies, sitting around in coffee shops, etc., they're remarkably cheaper than a lot of legal forms of entertainment.

[1] https://www.addictionresource.net/blog/cost-of-illegal-drugs...

Yes, and that's why I take small doses infrequently. I took a few months off because I was doing that much better, but the intrusive thoughts came back. But overall. No, my brain is fucked and tells me to kill myself every day; I don't need that abuse. Those brain cells deserve to die. More serious take: my quality of life is improved by an order of magnitude. I didn't want to survive another decade in that condition, but now I do. That's worth the risk

It's not just about the expense, ketamine can damage liver and kidneys, and reduce iron uptake. Efficiency, in this case, is more about harm reduction than expense

I take 50mg weekly, insnuflation, but suddenly considering sublingual. It's rid me of a lifetime of persistent ideation that had become a daily burden. It seems like I need way less than clinics give people