Everything about this reads like an binary. Most things in life are not black and white and not everything is "this way or that way". Frankly, the entire post smacks of lack of empathy and failing to seek to understand rather than being understood.
And, the honest truth is, I might be jaded, but I get the sense from this post the OP looks for reasons to be offended. This frustrates me JUST AS MUCH as people who are insensitive or seek to offend. Both have the same underlying challenge: they genuinely don't care about the person on the other side.
And, for OPs sake, I hope he can find out what he wants to do in life. However the sad truth of the world is there is no nirvana industry, profession, group or structure. Everything has faults. Mature people get this.