Ask HN: Have you ever had a changed-your-life moment? 4 years ago
When my dad died, shortly followed by my mum.
It really made me realise the futility of life.
Since then, it's been ten years or so, and I look forward to being dead.
Not for any religious, spiritual purpose, but just to get all this life nonsense out of the way. It will be much easier to not exist any more.