anleodhasach

I recognise the grief that you are feeling. People say time will help with healing, but as it's not a linear process, it is hard to latch onto the hope that it will. But time does let you step through the different stages of grief. It sounds like you are working through it, though. The gaming may seem empty, but it might be a coping strategy as well, and that is letting you come to terms with things, quietly in the background. You are asking questions, how to help yourself, this is a big step. You mention being alone and the effect it is having on you - would there be friends whose company you would enjoy, even for small periods? Meeting up for a walk, say. Small things. From your post, it looks like you are asking the right questions for yourself.