Being a B student bringing me down...

Hey

As the title suggests, being a B student throughout university has really been killing my confidence. I think to myself, if I can't do school right, how can I ever do a startup? Or even contribute at a successful company? I remember while reading Steve Jobs' biography his insistence on keeping B players out... And for good reason I figure.

My history is as such: deemed "smart" in high school, I decided to do engineering, not really knowing what it was. At least I've come to very much like it over the years. My first year completely took me by surprise, I didn't really try (that oh-so-useless self excuse) and ended up with Bs. Second year came around, and I really did start trying, but still, same result... Third year, same thing. Due to my marks I was never able to get good summer research opportunities (why not choose the A students?) which I feel is really closing doors for grad school for me.

But I don't even care so much about that as it really drains on me mentally. I need to drastically reframe this somehow, and come up with a plan of action to get myself going. This summer I'm trying to work on a side project at least, but I'm also tied up between trying to pre-study for other courses I could take in my last year to try and raise my grades. I honestly can't decide what the right course of action might be.

Yeah there's kids who don't get to go to college and kids who are starving and all that... But if anyone were to try and give me some other perspective I'd be very appreciative.

Cheers